ACIM Text Reading for March 30
Chapter 11 ~ God or the Ego
III. From Darkness to Light
When you are weary, remember you have hurt yourself. Your Comforter will rest you, but you cannot. You do not know how, for if you did you could never have grown weary. Unless you hurt yourself you could never suffer in any way, for that is not God’s Will for His Son. Pain is not of Him, for He knows no attack and His peace surrounds you silently. God is very quiet, for there is no conflict in Him. Conflict is the root of all evil, for being blind it does not see whom it attacks. Yet it always attacks the Son of God, and the Son of God is you.
God’s Son is indeed in need of comfort, for he knows not what he does, believing his will is not his own. The Kingdom is his, and yet he wanders homeless. At home in God he is lonely, and amid all his brothers he is friendless. Would God let this be real, when He did not will to be alone Himself? And if your will is His it cannot be true of you, because it is not true of Him.
O my child, if you knew what God wills for you, your joy would be complete! And what He wills has happened, for it was always true. When the light comes and you have said, ‘God’s Will is mine’, you will see such beauty that you will know it is not of you. Out of your joy you will create beauty in His Name, for your joy could no more be contained than His. The bleak little world will vanish into nothingness, and your heart will be so filled with joy that it will leap into Heaven, and into the Presence of God. I cannot tell you what this will be like, for your heart is not ready. Yet I can tell you, and remind you often, that what God wills for Himself He wills for you, and what He wills for you is yours.
The way is not hard, but it is very different. Yours is the way of pain, of which God knows nothing. That way is hard indeed, and very lonely. Fear and grief are your guests, and they go with you and abide with you on the way. But the dark journey is not the way of God’s Son. Walk in light and do not see the dark companions, for they are not fit companions for the Son of God, who was created of light and in light. The Great Light always surrounds you and shines out from you. How can you see the dark companions in a light such as this? If you see them, it is only because you are denying the light. But deny them instead, for the light is here and the way is clear.
God hides nothing from His Son, even though His Son would hide himself. Yet the Son of God cannot hide his glory, for God wills him to be glorious, and gave him the light that shines in him. You will never lose your way, for God leads you. When you wander, you but undertake a journey that is not real. The dark companions, the dark way, are all illusions. Turn toward the light, for the little spark in you is part of a Light so great that it can sweep you out of all darkness forever. For your Father is your Creator, and you are like Him.
The children of light cannot abide in darkness, for darkness is not in them. Do not be deceived by the dark comforters, and never let them enter the mind of God’s Son, for they have no place in His temple. When you are tempted to deny Him remember that there are no other gods to place before Him, and accept His Will for you in peace. For you cannot accept it otherwise.
Only God’s Comforter can comfort you. In the quiet of His temple, He waits to give you the peace that is yours. Give His peace, that you may enter the temple and find it waiting for you. But be holy in the Presence of God, or you will not know that you are there. For what is unlike God cannot enter His Mind, because it was not His Thought and therefore does not belong to Him. And your mind must be as pure as His, if you would know what belongs to you. Guard carefully His temple, for He Himself dwells there and abides in peace. You cannot enter God’s Presence with the dark companions beside you, but you also cannot enter alone. All your brothers must enter with you, for until you have accepted them you cannot enter. For you cannot understand Wholeness unless you are whole, and no part of the Son can be excluded if he would know the Wholeness of his Father.
In your mind you can accept the whole Sonship and bless it with the light your Father gave it. Then you will be worthy to dwell in the temple with Him, because it is your will not to be alone. God blessed His Son forever. If you will bless him in time, you will be in eternity. Time cannot separate you from God if you use it on behalf of the eternal.
ACIM Workbook Lesson for March 30
These are our review ideas for today:
(77) I am entitled to miracles.
I am entitled to miracles because I am under no laws but God’s. His laws release me from all grievances, and replace them with miracles. And I would accept the miracles in place of the grievances, which are but illusions that hide the miracles beyond. Now I would accept only what the laws of God entitle me to have, that I may use it on behalf of the function He has given me.
You might use these suggestions for specific applications of this idea:
Behind this is a miracle to which I am entitled.
Let me not hold a grievance against you, [name],
but offer you the miracle that belongs to you instead.
Seen truly, this offers me a miracle.
(78) Let miracles replace all grievances.
By this idea do I unite my will with the Holy Spirit’s, and perceive them as one. By this idea do I accept my release from hell. By this idea do I express my willingness to have all my illusions be replaced with truth, according to God’s plan for my salvation. I would make no exceptions and no substitutes. I want all of Heaven and only Heaven, as God wills me to have.
Useful specific forms for applying this idea would be:
I would not hold this grievance apart from my salvation.
Let our grievances be replaced by miracles, [name].
Beyond this is the miracle by which all my grievances are replaced.
Q #481: Is it possible that I can hold a grievance against someone who would not be holding grievances against me? The extreme example right now would be Jesus: I obviously have not forgiven him yet and he loves me unconditionally; so is it possible that in this world I have hatred for someone and that person could have nothing really specific against me?
A: Yes, it is entirely possible. That is the importance of remembering that relationships are only about what goes on in our minds. The ego cannot survive without grievances and hatred, so if you still identify with the ego thought system, you will find reasons to justify a grievance against another person, even if you have to make them up. And of course that has nothing to do with the other person. It has to do only with your belief (usually unconscious) that you are a guilty sinner and deserve to be punished. If you turn to the ego instead of Jesus to help you deal with that awful situation in your mind, you will be directed to project your guilt in order that you be free of it; and then you will quickly find fault with another person. You will have blocked from your awareness this dynamic of denial and projection and therefore will not realize that you are seeing your own guilt in another. As A Course in Miracles states: “Only the self-accused condemn. . . . You never hate your brother for his sins, but only for your own. Whatever form his sins appear to take, it but obscures the fact that you believe them to be yours, and therefore meriting a “just” attack” (T.31.III.1:1,5,6).
The lure of this dynamic is the ego’s guarantee that it will prove our own innocence. That is the whole point of projection, and that is why we find it almost impossible to let go of grievances. Following the ego’s teachings, I believe that if you are guilty, I must be innocent, because the ego’s system is ruled by the principle of one or the other. Our salvation thus depends on seeing others as guilty. The other person may be holding absolutely nothing against you, but if there is still guilt in your mind, you will have an overpowering need to find something to hate in that person. That is why Jesus is an extreme example. He has no guilt and therefore he cannot hate anyone. That means our not forgiving him has no effect on him. But yet we continue try to perceive him as guilty of something — our own guilt demands this.
His role as our teacher, however, is to help us look at the self-accusation of sin in our minds and learn that it is all made up — it is not based on fact, because it is impossible to attack God. The belief in sin testifies to the opposite — that God has been attacked, and we ought to feel good and guilty about it (original sin, as this is known in biblical traditions). If you accept what Jesus is teaching you in the Course, you will become free of any sense of sinfulness and therefore guilt, and so you will not have a need to hate and attack others, regardless of what their behavior may be. You will no longer have a need for grievances. “The innocent release in gratitude for their own release. And what they see upholds their freedom from imprisonment and death. Open your mind to change, and there will be no ancient penalty exacted from your brother or yourself. For God has said there is no sacrifice that can be asked; there is no sacrifice that can be made” (T.31.III.7).